Not everyone who reads my blog believes in God - the True God - but I believe God is as much as I believe if I drop a bowling ball on my foot it will hurt like hell. Through the work of Jesus Christ, God is in my soul now and I can't shake Him. And more then God is - He is the King of me and (although not all bow yet) the world around me. But even though I have this tie to God so deeply in my soul it is still so hard not to forget it. I mean, how do you make pulling food goop out of the kitchen scrub brush spiritual? Sometimes there are hours I don't eat or pee because I can't bear the thought of taking the time so do you think I take time to read the Bible much? The life I live is out to get me - and yet I feel no call from God to abandon my lifestyle. I can go nun now! But I need to stop my secret assumption that life should go well all the time. Life is a fight. There are trials, frazzled emotions, and sometimes in my life right now there is poop and spit up and wedding invitations everywhere and it takes all my strength to keep them apart! But God is. Whether I acknowledge it or not, God is. And I am thankful to have a God that is so big and that when you open the door just a bit for Him to come in - He does! To see God even just for a few minutes in a world of chaos is so wonderful. Although Life wants me to forget Him, He desperately wants me to remember. I am thankful that He loves me so much more then I love Him. And no matter what happens in my life - God is. So I keep fighting - to do what's right, to remember God's love in my life, and to not strangle my children...or my wonderful husband.
James 4:8 - Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.
Isaiah 41:10 - Do not fear for I am with you...I am your God.