tough days

I haven't been too active on my internet socialities... yeah I'm gonna make that word up. It's been a rough few weeks and I hate to spill it all on innocent bystanders but, yes, it's not been my favorite time. I feel like these are my "Job" days. I have these itchy skin sores that won't heal and a dermatologist appointment still 2+ weeks away. My urgent care drugs ran out and they won't give me more. I can see the sleepless night crouching back at the door. I've learned that marriage is harder when you itch all night and so is counting and cutting wedding invitations. And Tim's Calculus class isn't a walk in the park either. I'm just praying for strength until I can get the help I need and then Tim and I decided we're going to have a ton of fun this summer. We'll take turn watching the kids so I can play tons of volleyball and he can mountain bike.

Oh Lord sustain me! I have little faith but I have no other source of hope - so it's rely on the God who I know loves me or.... start buying some kind of drugs off the street. I think I'm going with option 1 but if I had shadier friends I think I might just go with option 2. Despair is not something to underestimate.

And because I just depressed you I'll leave with this latest adorable Calli picture to keep you coming back. And maybe if you're having a rough time, knowing that I feel your pain will make you feel a slight bit understood. As always I'm lucky to have a family that is my light in dark places, God's precious gift. I hope your gifts are shinning bright as well.